The struggle!

Listen to the most recent episode of my podcast: The struggle

“Then Jacob prayed, “O God of my father Abraham, God of my father Isaac, Lord, you who said to me, ‘Go back to your country and your relatives, and I will make you prosper,’ I am unworthy of all the kindness and faithfulness you have shown your servant. I had only my staff when I crossed this Jordan, but now I have become two camps. Save me, I pray, from the hand of my brother Esau, for I am afraid he will come and attack me, and also the mothers with their children. But you have said, ‘I will surely make you prosper and will make your descendants like the sand of the sea, which cannot be counted.’ ””

‭‭Genesis‬ ‭32:9-12‬ ‭NIV‬‬


No law, just Christ!

Have you ever desired to change your ways but you couldn’t? Have you ever been promised something but it didn’t happen when you wanted it? How did you react?

Well, in Roman’s Paul writes the answer to many of these questions. Listen or read this verse. “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.”

Romans 7:15

This scripture alone encompasses the feeling and the message that we may experience in minds and life.

I believe that people inherently desire to do good but good is measured by others depiction, opinion and the law. See in chapter 7 of Romans it explains that when the law was introduced it gave the information and life to sin.

Because sin now has life is ignited the spirit of sin that was dead and that which was good before became subject to sin.

Let me break it down further. The law was established for a good purpose. It was established for the Israelites as a tool to keep them holy and righteous. Before the law the only real commandments was to not eat if the tree of knowledge of Good and evil. As we all know that failed, terribly.

So, now that the Mosaic law had been introduced and it recognizes that not complying to it you are sinning. Paul did an excellent job explaining how having knowledge of sin produced the nature of doing what you don’t want to do which is sin.

But let me fast forward this to grace. See Jesus came into this World so that we will not be bound to the law no longer. It didn’t necessarily get rid of the law but he fulfilled it by dying for our sins. So do you see know his sin is death, If we didn’t sin and we fulfilled the law and Jesus would not have to come to save us from our death which is sin. It was written that He would come and because God gave us free will when He created us He knew that sin would be an option or inevitable.

Back to my earlier questions.

1. Have you ever desired to change your ways but you couldn’t or you weren’t sure how? Most of us have experienced this in ourselves or our experiences. I can definitely say, don’t try to do it alone. Trust that God knows your fear, weakness and strength. Connect with a mentor in your life someone who you trust and who is wise enough to give you good direction. Find scriptures that support your goal of change. Learn coping strategies and know what triggers you. But most of all lean on God.

2. Have you ever been promised something but it didn’t happen when you wanted it? How did you react? I would say yes to that question. Well, that goes back to my triggers. Where were I at in my healing when I responded to that situation. At the beginning I probably didn’t respond well. Yes, I am certain that lapse or delay trigged me to respond negatively to a positive gesture or something. I would describe it as my doctor prescribing medicine for me and I’ve taken all of the medication and I still feel bad. My feelings causes me to doubt the medication. I want instant feedback and it didn’t happen. But as the medication begins to work I now have a better paradigm of how it works. So then I would says that the does want to help but I must learn how they operate and not use my personal experiences to judge their actions. Then once I conquer my healing from my sickness then I will use this a a way to trust those who have proven they have my best interest.

See, the good is in you and has always been there but it was covered with sin and buried because sin brings death to (good) love. But Jesus died for our sins and we must remember that so we can live without being bound to it (sin.)

Start each day link to God. The best way is to pray, read and practice His word daily as you work, play,serve and grow.

It’s all good!

I thank God for my life. Definitely can say that it’s all good. This doesn’t mean that it was good every moment. I remember times as a child, an age I could comprehend happenings, that I heard my parents having a disagreement, this wasn’t good to experience.

I guess someone who didn’t have their parents or one parent may say “they wish they could hear the arguments.” There were times that I’ve been in relationships that was toxic for me. Did I want toxic? No, but I did want a relationship. I have not always made the right decisions. I became pregnant at 21 as a single mom and then I allowed my parents to raise them for awhile in the same situation I was reared in. But all things work for the good. I love the lord and so do our children and I believe their battles will become blessings because God loves us more than we do for him.

At the time your are going through the “things” it doesn’t seem good but if we know that it’s temporary we can get through it and we will be better.

It’s all good even when it was bad.

The power of silence

Have you ever had to say no to someone? Was that no because you couldn’t or because you didn’t want to? Well, I have and later I heard the message years later.

I just had a conversation with our oldest child. She has been though a lot financially, emotionally and spiritually. I didn’t realize that I said no to her about a need and then she saw me give what she asked for and more to the church or in our tithes. I do remember that I’ve said no to giving of resources but I not sure if was because we didn’t have it or that we wanted her to figure it out on her own. I do know throughout the years we have given so much out of our lack to our children so it could have been a purpose of a lesson.

My husband and I have provide a pretty good life for our children, I would say. We moved in neighborhoods that may have been out of our financial budget but we sacrificed because we wanted them to have more than we have. In this sacrifice we may have accumulated unnecessary bills but we have been blessed to have careers to pay them off.

My husband and I believe in tithing even when it means we are left with little. We understand the the tithes do not belong to us and that we are blessed with our career because of our sacrifices.

Anyway, we didn’t give our daughter any money at that time. Granted we have given countless others times in many different ways but it bothered her. She didn’t necessarily express it then but just recently she did.

Our daughter doesn’t see paying tithes or to the church the way we do. She like many see many churches or leaders abusing the resources or tithes and offering via news, social and local churches. Often we see pastors driving high in cars, planes and large homes. Many times that small amount of leaders who have and are abusing the resources makes it difficult for those who are living with integrity and morals.

I heard it said by many including our daughter that “God knows my heart,” but my question do you know God’s heart? What would we do if He based his blessings only on our sacrifice. What would happen if he thought of our needs based on how we responded to his word?

I thank God that He does treat me or you according to how we treat Him. I don’t know what I would do if I only receive as I’ve given or not given. This is in reference to service, tithes and offerings, prayer and time in His word. Many times we want to make a withdrawal from the bank without making a deposit.

If we look at God’s rate of return compared to our financial institutions we would be appalled. Appalled at how little the rate of return from our financial investment are compared to how we have been blessed by God. I don’t know a bank yet that keep a car that my mom has going for almost 20 years. I believe she’s blessed from her sacrifice to the church and her family. I believe my children’s are blessed because of generations of giving and serving. This is an example of God’s rate of return. Getting approved for a house or car that you don’t qualify for and then receiving resources to pay it off sooner. Funds being released when you’ve been told “no” countless times.

God has a way of show us how we can live better in the 90% than we would on the 100%.

So, I would say to you and my daughter, give God the benefit of His word and let Him take care of those leaders who abuse the church.

Heavenly Father, thanks for all the ways you have given us love, resources and peace even when we don’t deserve it. Father we ask that you will make sure that your word is clear to those who don’t know your heart and words of giving and sacrifice. We should seek you when it comes to our silence in regards to a “no” and a offense. Give us wisdom to judge our intentions and responsible to make sure our silence doesn’t separate us from your love and blessings but help us to develop a better relationship with you. Help us to decrease our want and understand your message. Father I believe your words about tithes and I seen your increase in my life in many ways. Give me the wisdom and guidance to show your light in me to lead my family and those you’ve assigned to me. This will be done in Jesus name Amen.